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I'm sitting next to you at the arcade. We've been together for almost a year. Five, six, years a go I never wouldve imagined we would have this. I love you. Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry

Yesterday I got aapep a bigger tank for 20 dolla.
 
We just finished decorating it. Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry

I <3 KATAMARI.

It breaks my heart to look at you.

I couldnt believe i underestimated it. it made me hurt so much more.

I don't think I can bring myself to see you.

even after so long.

im sorry.

but would you really care if i did or not?

you are an incrible person.

to talk.

not just talk.

to rock talk.

this is seriously the first time i didnt bottle up to the person who needs the drink.

and it turned great

i wasnt blown off, nor was i shot back with hostility.

it was with open arms and consideration.. the way it should be.

it feels so different. so good.

Iv'e never been happy like this.

:)

Blake Fielder-Civil, Amy Winwhouse's husband, is really hot. sometimes. when he doesnt look like a fucking drug addict. kinda like Pete Doherty.

I can't change what happens and I can't change what happened.

And at last I feel better. I dont feel better...I feel at ease.

But, ah, of course, lately ive begun to dwell and think once more.

and though it doesnt hurt and it doesnt bother nearly as much as it used to.

 I'm not at much ease anymore.

I'm not so comfortable anymore even if I dont have a reson not to be.

I mean, I'm over it..

but I dont know if its normal that its crossing my mind again.

I just need to remember

I can't change what happened.

[March 13, 2009 at  1:27 AM] thats when i wrote this...

idk. im just putting it here because i dont want him to think that i bacome so sad or anything whenever he goes out. especially if he feels bad afterwards. and it says yesterday.. but it was really two nights ago. yadadada?